What to do . . .
So I’ve been working on and off on this novel for a couple of years, and I’m thinking it may be dead. I’ve been going through phases where I’ll add to it everyday for about a week, and then go several weeks and not even look at the thing. At this point, it’s been almost a month since I’ve opened the file. I’ve been working on a few short stories in the meantime.
At what point do I just hang it up? I’m not talking about deleting the file, I just mean admitting to myself that the thing is indefinitely dead. I’m only 30,000 words in, and I still think there might be potential. I even have an idea about where it’s going to go from here. I’m afraid I’ve just lost the excitement. And that seems to me like a red flag. Maybe I’ll revisit it some other time. It is, after all, my first attempt at writing a novel by myself (me and a friend co-wrote a 60,000 word short novel a few years back).
The other thing is, I have a new idea. It’s been something I’ve been turning over in my head for a little while now, and this morning I woke up with a clear picture in my head of what could be the opening scene. I feel inspired about it, especially being that it’s National Novel Writing Month. I also feel a little afraid, though, if I truly am abandoning my first attempt. It feels like failure. I know the thing to do is just to keep going, push through it, but it’s a blow to my pride. It makes me wonder if I’m really ready to tackle a full novel.
Anybody have a similar experience of wondering whether or not to give up on a project? What was your final decision?